do i smell funny?? seriously!

why is it that i can never find someone to come to concerts with me??
am i that repulsive?

it's slowly and painfully been made clear to me that my friends and i don't really share the same taste in music. they listen to britney spears, i listen to bright eyes. they listen to jessica simpson and i listen to jenny lewis. they listen to avril livigne and i listen to arcade fire. this could go on forever...and i'm getting worried. my friends are very dear to me. but so is my music and it's getting harder and harder to not have anyone to share this part of my life with. not anyone within a 500 mile radius at least. but what can i do, pick up some new friends at a concert? no. you cant meet people at concerts. or atleast i don't know how to. i'm always the luckly girl at a concert all by her lonesome getting hit on by sleezly guys trying to get laid. not really into that. at least not yet. not that desperate. yet.

this all came from the fact that i have tickets to okkervil river and can't find a single fucking person to go with me. it's a free ticket to a great show. i'm not asking for any money. free show. free limor time. free music. and still nobody. this is fucking bullshit. bull.shit.
i don't want to stop going to concerts. but i'm sick of going alone. i want to share this pleasure with someone else. ahhhhhhhhh. now i'm getting readlly frustrated.

probably nobody's even going to read this post.
but if you do
wanna come see okkervil river at webster hall tomorrow night?

god i'm pathetic.

summer in the city

this summer was pleasantly painful.
3 weeks of pure bliss to start it off followed by 2 months of pain
but i did get to see some pretty great shows...
*the national (twice- 1st at bowery then at the free southstreet seaport show)
*feist (twice- 1st at town hall, then at mccarren pool with bss/kevin drew)
*bright eyes
*black rebel motorcycle club
*dinosaur jr.
*arcade fire
*the yeah yeah yeahs
*silver sun pickups
*jose gonzalez
*rilo kiley
and this friday, okkervil river. great way to end the summer before i go to israel.

i just finished reading Petal Pusher: A Rock and Roll Cinderella Story by Laurie Lindeen (the lucky lady married to Paul Westerberg). her book was exactly what i needed to pull me out of my rut. so inspiring. so personal. so emotional. so rockin'. so me. i'd been in a funk of many sorts this summer dealing with new emotions, trying to hide others, frustrated with my job, starving for something to artistically satisfying. smoking too much. eating too much. crying too much. basically stuck in a pms nightmare...

but i'm done with that. done with mulling over things i can't change and crying over things i'll never be able to fix.

i'm fleeing the country to sort things out and will come back renewed and ready to rock.
part of me worries that i'm putting too much presseure on this trip to israel as the answer to all my problems. well, it is the holy land where supposedly some pretty incredible things happened so...maybe i'm not to far off in my thinking.

i'm not bringing my computer with me. i'm going to disconnect completely. just me, my guitar, my music and my notebook. now i just need to decide what books to bring and i'm set. (any suggestions??)
well, not entirely set. i have to go to the israeli embassy and work out this little glitch with my passport. i am an israeli citizen so technically i'm supposed to serve in the army. however i am also an american citizen living in america which allows me to get a waiver to not serve in the army. everytime i go to israel i have to have this waiver with me, or else they will throw me into jail for avoiding my service and then into the army. two things which i don't especially want to happen.
and silly me didn't check my passport and just noticed that my israeli waiver and passport had expired. so, i gotta go get that fixed. or i might be on"vacation" for a really long time.

ANNUALS AND THE WALKMEN...oh yeah, and kaiser chiefs...

So I went to the Roseland Ballroom last night to see Annuals, The Walkmen and Kaiser Chiefs in concert.
Annuals - FUCKING ROCKED!
The Walkmen - AMAZING!
Kaiser Chiefs - eh...not my thing...

This was the second time I've seen Annuals in concert and they were phenomenal. Lead singer, Adam Baker, was awe-inspiring as usual. He puts everything he has into his performance. Body and soul. I'd goes as far as say they were the best set of the night. Unfortunately, pitchforkmedia.com totally left them out in their review of the show.

Why I'm Not A Lesbian...

I won...just kidding...i don't win.
but it's nice to get some support and recognition every once in a while.
let me explain:
i submitted a playlist for my friend's (can i call you a friend? i mean i know we've only met once, but i feel like i know you fairly well - well, that's not true either. i've only heard all about the wonderful amazing hutson - i'm sure there are flaws in there somewhere. somewhere. - anyway. you decide. if we need to be defined.i'd be fine living in ambiguity. i do most of the time.)
playlist/mixtape competition and he posted it. now i made this mix when i was at work and didn't have access to my music. and now, upon listen to it as a whole...i might have made different choices. but it's too late. and i still love all the songs i put on it. so i stick by my list.

you can check it out at http://postersofrockstars.blogspot.com/

i'd post it here...but i don't know how to do that yet...sorry.

he had me comment on each of the songs i chose and the more i thought about it, the more it was evident that they all revolved around one thing. or person rather. but i tried not to convey that too much...apparently i failed.

reading his comments reminded me just how much my heart hurts. though it's nice to know i'm not alone. misery loves company, right?

homelesssexual

I got no damn place to go
I got no damn place to go
I'm a homelessexual...
And I'm homeless...

Not yet, but i will be soon. Anyone have any bright ideas as to where i can live?

a message from the past

i opened my laptop this morning and was greeted by a message saying "I HATE PEOPLE "

I have a notebook laptop (thanks bro) and this note was a handwritten message from august 12...must have been a rough night...that for some reason popped up to remind me that, yes, i am sometimes a cynical judgemental creature of sorts. but why today?

well, in opposition to my post from the past, i have discovered something pleasant in someone very unsuspecting. we all know actress jena malone from blockbuster hits such as stepmom and saved, but now she's breaking into the music industry. now, ususally i scoff and scorn celebrities just trying to make money in every field, and not giving a damn about art and integrity, but i've been listening to her music (courtesy of pitchforkmedia.com) and am very intrigued. the quality of her voice is unexpected with a quivering, melancholy feel to it. and if you read my last post and know anything of bright eyes, that's right up my alley:)

she's performing at mercury lounge on the 6th and i think i just might go and check her out.
i'd put her song in here, but i don't know how to do that. can anyone tell me how??

a night in review

yesterday:
work sucked
guitar lesson rocked
went to southpaw in brooklyn to see the lemonheads - fucking soldout
pissed i went home
got shitfaced
by myself
listened to brighteyes all night...bad idea...

but on an up note, i'm excited to see conor in concert next weekend.

check out his new music video for "four winds" on spinner.com

http://www.spinner.com/2007/02/23/video-premiere-four-winds-by-bright-eyes/