do i smell funny?? seriously!

why is it that i can never find someone to come to concerts with me??
am i that repulsive?

it's slowly and painfully been made clear to me that my friends and i don't really share the same taste in music. they listen to britney spears, i listen to bright eyes. they listen to jessica simpson and i listen to jenny lewis. they listen to avril livigne and i listen to arcade fire. this could go on forever...and i'm getting worried. my friends are very dear to me. but so is my music and it's getting harder and harder to not have anyone to share this part of my life with. not anyone within a 500 mile radius at least. but what can i do, pick up some new friends at a concert? no. you cant meet people at concerts. or atleast i don't know how to. i'm always the luckly girl at a concert all by her lonesome getting hit on by sleezly guys trying to get laid. not really into that. at least not yet. not that desperate. yet.

this all came from the fact that i have tickets to okkervil river and can't find a single fucking person to go with me. it's a free ticket to a great show. i'm not asking for any money. free show. free limor time. free music. and still nobody. this is fucking bullshit. bull.shit.
i don't want to stop going to concerts. but i'm sick of going alone. i want to share this pleasure with someone else. ahhhhhhhhh. now i'm getting readlly frustrated.

probably nobody's even going to read this post.
but if you do
wanna come see okkervil river at webster hall tomorrow night?

god i'm pathetic.

summer in the city

this summer was pleasantly painful.
3 weeks of pure bliss to start it off followed by 2 months of pain
but i did get to see some pretty great shows...
*the national (twice- 1st at bowery then at the free southstreet seaport show)
*feist (twice- 1st at town hall, then at mccarren pool with bss/kevin drew)
*bright eyes
*black rebel motorcycle club
*dinosaur jr.
*arcade fire
*the yeah yeah yeahs
*silver sun pickups
*jose gonzalez
*rilo kiley
and this friday, okkervil river. great way to end the summer before i go to israel.

i just finished reading Petal Pusher: A Rock and Roll Cinderella Story by Laurie Lindeen (the lucky lady married to Paul Westerberg). her book was exactly what i needed to pull me out of my rut. so inspiring. so personal. so emotional. so rockin'. so me. i'd been in a funk of many sorts this summer dealing with new emotions, trying to hide others, frustrated with my job, starving for something to artistically satisfying. smoking too much. eating too much. crying too much. basically stuck in a pms nightmare...

but i'm done with that. done with mulling over things i can't change and crying over things i'll never be able to fix.

i'm fleeing the country to sort things out and will come back renewed and ready to rock.
part of me worries that i'm putting too much presseure on this trip to israel as the answer to all my problems. well, it is the holy land where supposedly some pretty incredible things happened so...maybe i'm not to far off in my thinking.

i'm not bringing my computer with me. i'm going to disconnect completely. just me, my guitar, my music and my notebook. now i just need to decide what books to bring and i'm set. (any suggestions??)
well, not entirely set. i have to go to the israeli embassy and work out this little glitch with my passport. i am an israeli citizen so technically i'm supposed to serve in the army. however i am also an american citizen living in america which allows me to get a waiver to not serve in the army. everytime i go to israel i have to have this waiver with me, or else they will throw me into jail for avoiding my service and then into the army. two things which i don't especially want to happen.
and silly me didn't check my passport and just noticed that my israeli waiver and passport had expired. so, i gotta go get that fixed. or i might be on"vacation" for a really long time.